useless administration

several issues suddenly just pissed me off regarding poor organization and administrative systems everywhere NOWADAYS. I hope I understand myself why I'm pissing away so fast nowadays. Prolly cuz I hate seeing unorganised things going on, and they're not in perfect protocol.

1st issue was regarding SILAT-only-for-MUSLIM issue. I got this stupid e-mail by somebody somebody stating such "racist". SILAT is a martial art, who cares if you're gonna recite Quran before or after the SILAT?!!! I can just close 1 eye. The issue of racism is being sensitive to me nowadays because I hate hypocrisy of 1Malaysia.

2nd issue was a unprofessionalism of people sending e-mails to a significant amount of students to make announcement with no sense of respect and thinking it was sense of humour. This foreigner sent out e-mail requesting for feedback from fellow students with some nigga slang. So... I couldn't take it and replied to all screwing him up. perhaps suddenly I felt sense of respect and professionalism are very important.

3rd issue was seeing lazy buggers not doing their task. and yea... we hate them, and they call us racist in the end... Not just locally, but I seem to hate foreigners or I should say, I'm not longer excited over foreigners being in my country. To be exact, BLACKS. They come as if it's their house... making the wholee place look like KANDANG... showing superiority... If you're gonna call me racist, so be it.

4th issue was regarding university cafeteria with A LOT of flies infesting. I was so so so... pissed because it's like im eating near a rubbish bin! How it feels with 30-50 flies around u? If the flies know how to attack, we're invaded. it's ok. I couldn't stand it because it's been an issue of cockroaches before this and now flies. it's gonna b SA management again. Getting elected, having special rooms in university campus and not making the university a better place. The insisted to see SA president, he joked in the stupid black ppl slang, "i mean what do you want me to do? chase the flies away? (making running gesture)" I looked back at him seriously. then only he started being serious and ask me to send an e-mail to SA Welfare officer and CC is to him. Till now, I got no response but I know they've read the mail. I'm just waiting for a launch of No-Confidence and wipe out the whole SA committee. and also waiting for the action to call members from ministry of health. but seems that Estate Office is doing sth. damn it... haihz. However, prior to seeing SA president, I expressed disatisfaction to the Western-Food auntie about this, that bitch responded "it's like that one lah boy... IT'S FLY SEASON!!!" I wanted to respond but pulled back cuz im too disappointed. An event, Gatsby Dance show thingy was gonna hold at night there for dancing performance, and can you imagine the reputation of flies? and messiness at 1st floor?

5th issue was my friend got summoned for "speeding at 92km/h. just 2km/h extra. so... u should get wat's my frustration gonna b about.

That's about it. I'm pissed. =)

sometimes i wonder how d strangest thing could happen. i spoke to somebody very closely... it was a wonderful chat... and all of a sudden after some time, the somebody seemed to not know me at all! lolz... should I call his hypocrisy or it's pure memory fade-away... or other reasons... I'm not complaining... but i'm just wondering how to forget someone you've spoken closely before. I can even remember somebody that I shook hands with! or even smiled with...

kuala kubu bahru

went to Kuala Kubu Bahru for our 2nd coursework under Environmental Assessment. haha... I think I'm liking such courseworks. Drove all d way to KKB. It was quite a long distance though. Surprisingly when we were at the orang asli's new located area, we came across ntv7 crew who're on a mission to interview orang asli! haha... We were kinda excited la... I was listening to their conversation; trying to get some info for our assignment as well actually =) All and all, our mission was to scope around the dam located in KKB. If i'm not wrong, KKB dam supplies water to almost the whole of selangor. Snapped some pics from the info centre. Actually the fun part was going to the stream area. It actually reminded me of the 40km Ulu Yam camping trip. The river was so chilling and crystal clear. During our camping trip, we actually drank the river water and it was actually very refreshing!!!

the ugly truth.

start thinking a bit... the truth about something. when somebody wants you to tell the truth, it's always ugly! i sort of start to agree with it. the ugly truth, beautiful lie. truth is always linked to reality while a lie is always in the fantasy. most of the time ppl get hurt listening to the truth. I somehow wish to find out the truth about myself to improve. but again, if only I can overcome the denial.

Good Charlotte sang a very emo song tho - The Truth. but I love it. should listen to it.

Poor Jac's car got hit slightly because of some lousy driver(foreigner). I was actually quite frustrated because it turned out that she's sorta paying 50:50 for d repair of the car. How is it possible?!!! Jac's car was just parking at d roadside and d roadside was actually a lane into d hostel! Some shitty excuses given by d foreigner :
1) she parked at an illegal parking area(roadside that doesn't hav a parking spot).
2) it was dark at night, that y when d guy reversed he couldn't see. + her car was BLACK. =.="

The point is, d amatuer guy BANGED her car!!! and there's no excuse for it! and Jac gave in for d 50:50 deal because she didnt want to create a big trouble. I'm just so frust-ed when ppl get bullied esp if I know foreigners trying to bully us because overseas, foreigners r gonna bully us too if we did sth wrong. I could've just made a police report and charge d fella. sigh... frust... when I'm frust... this is it...

yes... im starting to spell the word S.C.R.E.W.E.D...

this is the worse time of my life so far. I have to change my FYP title... which i'm behind time for 4 weeks. 4 weeks dont seem a lot and dont seem little... but I have so many things in hand to deal and settle... =( 1st decision made wrong 4 my FYP. haihz...

OM MANI PADME HUM

These 6-character words are actually very powerful chant which I think most people wouldn't know.

< These 6 characters together make up the Six Character Great Bright Mantra, each one individually is able to emit brilliant light.

The first character is "nan" (sanskrit : OM). When you recite "nan" once, all ghost and spirits must place their palms together. Why do they put their palms together? To maintain the rules and regulations. Conforming to the regulations, they follow the correct way. Recite this one character all ghost and spirits don't dare to rebel and create confusion; they don't dare to disobey orders. This is the first sound in the Mantra "Mani" (sanskrit : Mani) means 'silent wisdom'. Using wisdom one is able to understand all principles, and thus is able to be silently extinguished, without production. It is also defined as 'seperating from filth' which means leaving all dust and filth. It can be compared to the 'precious as you will pearl' which is extremely pure, with no defilement. Whatever excellence you wish to bring forth, if you have the 'precious as-you-will pearl' it can be done. It can also fulfill your wishes in accord with your thoughts. Every vow you make will be fulfilled. These are its benefits.

"Pa mi" (sanskrit : PADME) actually should read "pa t'e mi". It means 'light perfectly illuminating" and is also defined as 'the opening of the lotus'. It is analogous to the wonderful lotus flower which can complete, perfect and fulfill without obstruction. It is the wonderful mind of Avalokitesvara Bodhisattva. This is "pa mi".

Next come "hung" (sanskrit : HUM) which means 'put forth'. Anything at all can be born from this character "hung". It also means 'to protect and support'. Recite this character and all Dharma protectors and good spirits come to support and protect you. It also means 'eradicating disasters'. Recite this character and whatever difficulties there are will be eradicated. It also means 'success' whatever you cultivate can be accomplished. >

nope... not a good sign for d days ahead... damn it!!! sigh...

went back 2 amsteel and got some freaking bad news. sh*t... d plant isn't gonna implement d project i'm looking into. u know wat? for that moment i was stunned n couldn't express much of myself in front of d manager. everything seems like a lie of what he'd been telling me! i still put on d smile, but my heart frankly was going wild a bit. and I think i'm in deep shit for suggesting my own FYP title.

somehow I cant put d blame on anybody else esp d manager even though he'd been trying 2 convince me 2 take up d project. it's d directorate meeting that's causing this project 2 halt. it's quite an "unforseen" circumstance.

I dont know y... but i think i need wisdom n guidance to push me forward on wat i have to do. if there was someone who would console me...

I need to fix this issue asap. FYP is giving me F**ing lotsa headache!!! an idiotic lecturer is giving me a prob, my essay... somehow my heart keeps telling me that I'm capable of fixing this prob. please... im getting fed up...

i'm able to see that nobody cares the crap out of u when u're working. especially d high profile ppl. I "think" I know what it means by tough working world. I "think" I know how it would mean to "survive" in d working world. =( I "think" I know how much u'd need 2 good in all aspects to CLIMB up 2 d next corporate level.

hi =) havnt been blogging 4 a while cuz been busy and done feel like blogging.

Anyway, I noticed my lifestyle changed slightly after beginning my final yr. I feel final yr has elevated me to another way of life. What are the obvious changes?

- I started writing/scribbling watever my progress on a book that I decided to carry around whereever I go. It's quite an irony cuz I used to be forced to do jot my tasks when I was in primary school, yet was reluctant. Now I think it's very good and cool! Prolly cuz it's my final yr now, and watever findings I got I need to immediately jot down on a log book b4 I forget.

- I sleep quite early and get up early!!! hrmmz...

- I felt like travelling more, going 2 places more instead of going my things at home. That's y I decided to take up Environmental Assessment module instead of all boring engineering modules.

- I guess I'm more serious now compared to before. I feel I'm spending most of my time thinking and trying to organise myself.

Somehow I think I should still have some fun hanging out... hrmmz...

Last again, can't wait to play basketball tmr!!!

1st day back to uni... gotta say... "everything's gonna b fine..." =)